Scared but bored

SPM year

I must push myself to work harder,
Not to disappoint myself and everyone who believes in me.

But

I don't feel" the push" yet. I haven't done anything useful for this week, ohmygodd~
The guilt!! BTW I just woke up from a 5-minute sleep on my aunt's couch, covered in sweat and facing the blur dying light of evening.

ohmygoddd~

>.<